No One

As I sit here writing out note cards for my Psychology test tomorrow, No One by Alicia Keys came on my Bruno Mars Pandora (GREAT station by the way. HIGHLY recommend it). It immidiately placed me back to winter break 2008. Driving, in the rain, to and from Ryan's house in Suisun. Wow.
It's amazing how much life can change. I loved that time, and looking back on it I'm so happy it happened. I wouldn't have wanted it to have gone any differently. What an amazing experience love is. I can't wait to have it again.
It will come.
I can feel it.
But for now, I must figure out who I am.
And I'm okay with that.

Worked on a monologue today in Bill's class. Sally from A Lie of the Mind. Wow. I knew I was so-so on it but the only way I as going to get anywhere with it was to do the piece in front of people and get a response. I got mostly maybes, which is good, it's what we strive for.
Technically we want a yes, but a maybe is a foot in the door.
Anyway. Having Bill side coach me on it helped O so much. He's never really done that with me before, and I feel as if he believes in me now. He now knows I can take direction and I'm stable enough to not completely crumble. I've always wanted him to go through a piece with me, line by line practically and ask me questions to unearth things and make more discoveries.

I remembered why I act today, in that class.
It's people like Bill that make me want to be better.
Who believe in me, want me to succeed and are willing to take the journey with me.
What a hero he is to me.

Well, I must watch a play now. I am so nervous. AAHH!!!

<3 :)