Arrested

The countdown has officially begun!
YIKES.
42 days.
Whoa.
I hosted a couple sketch comedy shows this weekend at a local theatre and it was so much fun. The feeling of not being restricted to your text, but you do have to generally now it, is slightly terrifying, but I trusted all of my playmates. I was talking to them about the next sketch comedy show and they said it's being moved from once a month to every two or three months. Okay, I said, I'll try to make it to the next..... I WON'T BE HERE. I won't be here. I WON'T be here. I won't BE here. I won't be HERE. HERE is where I won't be.

That's frightening.

And refreshing.

For once in my life I have absolutely no idea what I am going to be doing in two months. I'm scared to death. This is unlike anything I have ever done before. When I left for college It was just moving cities, which was very scary as well, BUT I had my boyfriend at the time, and I was going into the comfort of school for another 4 years and I knew people at the school I was going to.

Moving to L.A is a little different. I'll know loads of people down there, but I won't be going to school and it's not guaranteed that I'll have the security of a job right off the bat. I lay in bed at night and just think about what it will be like, and I can envision PLENTY of fantasies but of course I will never know what is going to happen until I get there. And that's scary. Beyond scary.

I am just so excited and elated to work, and try to work, and audition, and walk around in the place I have been thinking about walking around in since I was 5, and work, and walk around some more and meet people and audition. I am ECSTATIC to do something new. Excited to get out of Chico, although I am going to miss it like crazy. Many good times were shared here, and many tears, lots of sweat, friends were made, lost, and made again. I've moved houses five times, January will be number six. I imagine I will move many more times within the next few years, and I'm okay with that.

I'm okay with where my life is right now and where it will be tomorrow, next week, next month and when I make the big move. Sure I'd like some things to be different, but I can't think of life that way, and I try not to. I'm exactly where I need to be right now.

And right now, I like where I am.

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