Hmmm...

Well It has been just about a month since my last post. SORRY! I just get wrapped up in things then I don't want to spend an hour writing about it and having my lap-top on my lap makes me sweat so that doesn't make it any more inviting... eh hem...

4 weeks and I have not done much. I've had some adventures with some fun people. Gone to the El Rey for some kick ass movies. Had rehearsal OH BTW I'm in two plays here in Cheeeek. One is a puppet show with a good friend of mine directing it, Cupid and Psyche and I play Psyche, and the other is The Winter's Tale and I play Cleomenes. I am so lucky to have gotten both of these parts, especially Cleomenes. I didn't audition for Winter's Tale because I had a lot on my plate at the time and I thought 'Hey, why don't you try to not do any theatre this summer, that way you can start fresh next semester' BAD IDEA. I was itchin to do something 1 week after Lebowski ended... Funny how the drug of theatre consumes our lives... Any way. Shae and I contacted Jeff, the director for Winter's tale who I had done Romeo and Juliet with last summer and the last weekend of Lebowski with, with our numbers wanting to know if he needed any technical help. If I wasn't on stage I was going to be on the side lines FO SHO, I had to be involved SOMEHOW! And a couple weeks later he contacted us with parts and of course we said yes. It's crazy how fast time flies...

It has now been just about 2 months since 'the split.' It's still weird feeling my ring finger on my right hand and having nothing be there... Interesting...

Do you ever think, randomly, about how stupid and naive you have been throughout your education, or life, and make a vow never to do it again? Had one of those today in the shower... About my education on acting and theatre and how this stupid little parrot creature on my shoulder wont shut up at times... Then I remember my high school days and although I didn't have any 'technique' I also didn't care what I was doing. I had such free will and commitment to my character, the play and whatever choice I made. I had the god damn COURAGE OF MY CONVICTIONS. Look at that, I knew Bill Johnson before I actually took his class... It's so funny how we get so wrapped up in ourselves and what we are doing that we forget to open our eyes and look around. Acknowledge and accept the gifts we are given throughout life, and on stage, and be not afraid to give back. That's my new vow, my summer resolution if you will; to not be afraid to receive and to give (... That's what she said...). Then I fantasized about being accepted into Yale School of Drama and well we all know where that goes...

As for my work out routine, it is going quite well. I have gone to the gym Monday through Friday for the past 4 weeks, last week was a little rough but I still went out and did stuff and didn't just sit on my ass. I can't say that I see any progress, but I can feel progress. My abs are becoming tighter, my arms feel stronger, as does my back. It's the little things. I'm coming more to the realization that this is me and this is my body and I may want to change it at times, but who doesn't? To their body that is... And if I am ever going to live and love and be loved and give gifts and receive gifts and all that jazz, I need to learn to accept who I am because if I don't nobody will. They will see right through my lies and deception and not want to be around me, and I don't want that.

On another positive note, our apartment is no longer in our hands. These very nice gentlemen toured it and loved it and applied and were approved, now they just need to sign the lease for it to be all legal. YYYAAAAAAYYYY!!!! Words simply can not describe how happy I am. This takes so much stress off of my back. Phew. And we went to sign our new apartments lease today (for 11 months. at the end, I'll be graduated and doing god knows what). Proud leasers at Creek View Homes, HOLLA! I'm planning on buying a gigantic lock for my room, Peter Pan style :)

Well I don't have much else to say, just that life is pretty sweet right about now. Get out there and enjoy yourself AND love who you are!

<3

Bad Ass

First and foremost- I LOVE JUSTIN LONG.

Okay. Good thing I said that because I would have dreamed about the guy... Not that it would have been a bad dream ;)

Anyway. Had such a good weekend with my parents. It's a little strange that we're as close as we are, I pretty much tell them everything and therefore they tell each other everything. Can sometimes backfire, but oh well. It was Father's Day today and I spent all day with mi padre. What an inspirational guy. He is the ripe age of 47, I think, and sometimes he has more energy than I do! I have never witnessed him being selfish, he's always there when I need someone and he never stops caring. Ever. Now I'm not saying my mom doesn't do all that, because she does and then some, but I feel I already have an inner body connection with her because she birthed me. With a dad, it's something you earn and when you do, it will never die.

Sometimes I think about all the things parents do for their kids and it makes me really concerned because I don't think I could ever do those things... And I would get REALLY annoyed... Like the whole crying, whining, constantly wanting attention thing. PLEASE get over yourself. You are not the center of the world. And another thing I don't understand is how parents just let their kids do whatever they want. I'm sorry, but I don't care how much you love someone, they should not stick their hands down their pants and then pick their nose. NOT okay. It's funny to say that too because I want boys, and BOY are they dirty...

I need some more Supernatural in my life...

Some semi good news- On Facebook I am following a few audition sites for the San Francisco and Long Beach areas and they put that they are auditioning for some shows for the rest of the year. Not saying I'm going too but it's reassuring that when I do need some work, I can audition. Their not hiding it from me or saving it for some Equity bullshit... I kind of have a plan for after school, ready? I'm going to audition for a couple grad schools, but nothing huge. I'm sick of school at the moment. I want to go and DO not sit and LEARN... So if the grad school thing doesn't work out, which will save me some $$$, then I'm goin south and doing small jobs, work to get some SAG vouchers and be elligable, then find an agent... No matter what I'm going to be searching for an agent, but it might be a little simpler to find one after I'm SAG elligable...

Also, I have a new plan. Work my ass off at the gym. Not for anyone but M-E. I was listening to In The Heights on the way to Sequoia and thinking about people who are serious about their craft, and you only see older actors who are bigger. Everyone else is more tone, fit. And then Megan Fox popped into my head and her disgusting 6 pack on her 5'7" 90 lb. body and I got the sudden urge to run 3 miles. Not because I want to look ANYTHING like Megan Fox, personally she's got a purty face but she is waaay too skinny (SKELATOR anyone?), but because I want to be a better me. Sounds corny, I KNOW, but it wouldn't hurt, right? So I have somewhat of a routine. M-W-F cardio and T-TH-S strength. Ideally I would spend 2 hours a day at the gym doing both but I don't have the time, patience OR will power...

That's my life right now. Constantly thinking about the future... Get's really irritating but that's life...

BED TIME! Must take my faja to the airport in 5 hours. EEK!

:)